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I don't want to be a girl today. I'm pretty sure no one reads my blog so I'm going to write about PMS. Most of the time I don't mind being a girl I actually like it but some days I just wish I didn't have to deal with it. Normally when I'm menstruating I get terrible cramps and I get really moody (only with my mother and my roommates though) and I have to say after eight or so years of this I'm pretty used to it ya know? But this month was completely different NO cramps I thought I was in heaven. I wasn't in pain and I didn't feel bloated I wasn't even moody. Well that was yesterday. I don't know what happened but for some reason I have been extremely irritable today. I was fine this morning a little tired but pretty content and then I had to do a presentation on the cadavers (which I like doing) and one of the other girls in our group went over some of the stuff that I was supposed to cover which left me with less things to go over and it made me look like a slacker to our teacher. I don't think she did it on purpose but it really irritated me because the same thing happened last time we presented and I'm pretty sure my teacher thinks I'm lazy and don't even try in his class. Now most people would be happy about having to do less work but still I'm not lazy and I don't like when we agree on something and then they change it without telling me. I suppose it is partially my fault I kinda separated myself from our group (I don't like working with other people if you haven't noticed yet) and so they probably don't even notice when I'm being ignored or left out of things.

Well that was what set me off and then I had to spend the rest of class stewing over it and then add the smell of formaldehyde and latex that won't come off of your hands no matter how many times you wash them and yeah. I was not happy. The day just seemed to get worse because I had to go home and study for an anatomy test (which I totally bombed by the way) and my roommates had made PVC pipe guns and bought Nerf darts and were shooting them all over. I had to make some serious threats to keep them from shooting me. I was not in the mood to be shot.

The weird thing was I snapped at my roommate's sisters (who are visiting for the week. We're all friends so I wasn't snapping at people I don't know) more than I snapped at my roommates I hardly ever get irritated with my friends when I'm on my period I only get ornery with people that I'm really close to because I know that they still love me when it's over (translated I get ornery with my mother, my sister, Boss, and sometimes our other roommate "That"). It's probably because they (my roommates sisters) were the ones shooting the guns and one of them did shoot me (I did follow through with my threat). I try not to get angry with people especially when they don't deserve it and I feel bad about being so irritable with them.

I think it must be a combination of PMS, not enough sleep, and stress from school (you know it's really stressful when your brain explodes while your studying the nervous system for a test and the circulatory system for a presentation and working on a research paper about medical examiners)

There I just needed to vent and the Internet is always a good listener.